I have this 'idea' notebook that I started last year while I was still working at the hospital. Some days I'd sit alone at lunch and write down all my ideas for what I envisioned my business to look like, the creative projects I wanted to start, and everything else that I desired for my life. It kept me in a hopeful state. One time, my friend came up to me in the cafeteria and asked me what I was intensely working on. "I'm planning out my life, " I simply said. It was true.

It's been three months since I've transitioned into my own private practice and stepped fully into my 'must.' Earlier this week, I flipped back to those pages I wrote while still working at the hospital. How phenomenal to see what has transpired from those first idea seeds written back in December, and how much progress and growth can happen intentionally within a short amount of time.

I encourage everyone to sit and write their ideas down. Big or small, it doesn't matter. Because when it's in black and white, in your own handwriting, it's very hard to ignore. You'll be surprised at how cultivating those first idea seeds can blossom with a little water and intention, taking you down interesting and pleasantly unexpected paths.

AND YET.

There is another notion of being pregnant with emptiness. Being completely open and surrendering to the grandioseness of the Universe, of God, and how even our 'big dreams' pale in comparison to the greatness that we are meant for. This idea of allowing and trusting while still 'doing work' but remaining an open conduit for a future that is incomprehensible to us.

I've been holding these two ideas in my head. This push-pull between consciously going after our big dreams and also remaining open to serendipity.

This month, I wanted to explore. To say YES to opportunities, networking events, personal meetings, outdoor excursions, documentary films, and art gallery trips that would allow me to see the world in a new and unique way. To say YES to things that would shift my perspective, provide me with a sense of awe, introduce me to the world of design thinking and self-publishing and all the ways I still want to contribute to the world.

I still scribble down all my big and small ideas for what I want to accomplish for the upcoming week. But now, I'm learning to leave a lot of blank space because I know those bigger miracles and opportunities will fill up those lines, and eventually, my life.